From dark to light; it is He who delivered me.

Sometime back in December

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt and sort of known that something about me is different- and I always pegged it as a bad thing.


There were a few months, in the end of 2011 and beginning of 2012, where I really truly believed I discovered who I was and what my purpose in life was.


Boy, was I completely wrong.


This eventually lead to me spiraling back down into the empty, cold, and sinful lifestyle I thought I left, that left me with an even deeper void in my soul. I wondered, "is this really all there is to life? Being okay for a short while but ultimately leading back to really not being okay?" It stumped  me. I felt like a robot.


Little did I know, God had a plan for me. He still does. He is my purpose. Plain and simple. No trippy, psychedelic, mysterious purpose to my life. Just God. The most Almighty and Powerful and Loving King in all the universe; the Only one. He showed himself to me when I had no one and gave me answers to my soul. He forgave me and loved me and helped me truly discover myself. Finally! I live my life now for Him, I try my best every day. 


And so, now I know what it is that is different about me. And it is not a bad thing. My entire life, God has prepared me to understand that I do not need anyone here on earth, only Him. That's why I've had problems with friends. That's why I've always known deep in my soul that somehow, if I were meant to be alone for my life, I would be okay. And I know now, it is because I have God. He is everything and He is all I need. Nothing more. 


He has blessed me with His grace at such a young age and I pray I will be able to reach humility and peace within my soul, so that when my time comes I may be with Him and all my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ in Heaven.