Times like these..

My attitude became colder, and my faith faded away. 
Deception filled my mind 
It felt as though these demons were here to stay.
But the Spirit, oh so Holy, drew them away;
Brought me to cry out
to the Lord's holy Name.
And so I did, to the King Almighty
He heard my pleads
Then began to intercede..
His presence filled my soul
And His love took control
My faith restored, with just the saying of His holy Name.


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"With no one to turn to.. that's when I met You."

From dark to light; it is He who delivered me.

Sometime back in December

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt and sort of known that something about me is different- and I always pegged it as a bad thing.


There were a few months, in the end of 2011 and beginning of 2012, where I really truly believed I discovered who I was and what my purpose in life was.


Boy, was I completely wrong.


This eventually lead to me spiraling back down into the empty, cold, and sinful lifestyle I thought I left, that left me with an even deeper void in my soul. I wondered, "is this really all there is to life? Being okay for a short while but ultimately leading back to really not being okay?" It stumped  me. I felt like a robot.


Little did I know, God had a plan for me. He still does. He is my purpose. Plain and simple. No trippy, psychedelic, mysterious purpose to my life. Just God. The most Almighty and Powerful and Loving King in all the universe; the Only one. He showed himself to me when I had no one and gave me answers to my soul. He forgave me and loved me and helped me truly discover myself. Finally! I live my life now for Him, I try my best every day. 


And so, now I know what it is that is different about me. And it is not a bad thing. My entire life, God has prepared me to understand that I do not need anyone here on earth, only Him. That's why I've had problems with friends. That's why I've always known deep in my soul that somehow, if I were meant to be alone for my life, I would be okay. And I know now, it is because I have God. He is everything and He is all I need. Nothing more. 


He has blessed me with His grace at such a young age and I pray I will be able to reach humility and peace within my soul, so that when my time comes I may be with Him and all my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ in Heaven.

Unfailing Love

Have you ever longed for love? Of course you have. Everyone has. It's built in us as human beings; we are all made with the desire to love and be loved. Without love, we are nothing and life is nothing.

Have you ever felt heartbroken? As though you're not worth love, or worth anything at all? As though you will never feel whole, happy, or loved? I think you have. We all have, at some point or another. 

Well, maybe we could get this "love", this thing that seems to be the only answer to the empty and horrible void every human holds in their soul, if only we knew what love even is.

Well, lemme tell you exactly what it is.

God.

God is love.

"Whoever is without love is without God, for God is love. In this way the love of God was revealed to us: God sent his only Son into the world so that we might have life through him. In this is love: not that we have loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as expiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us we also must love one another." - 1 John 4:7-11

And only He, the very creator of your heart, soul, and spirit, can truly satisfy it. Because only He knows your heart inside and out, every flaw, every pain, every memory, every desire and longing, every weakness.. everything. And YET, it is HE who loves you for it. He loves you more than you can even imagine, for His love is heavenly and divine, literally out of this world and filled with just pure love and no flaws or holes. Pure love. stronger than anything in this world, for from this divine love, He sent His only begotten Son to this painful earth.. so that through His life and death and resurrection, we may not perish but instead have ETERNAL life with our Blessed Creator in Heaven.

"For God so loved the world that he have his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him might not perish but might have eternal life. For god did not send his son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through him." -John 3:16-17

So, to fill this empty and painful void inside our souls which we previously have tried to fill with many worldly things, we must turn to God. Through His only Son, Jesus Christ, we are forgiven if we truly mean it with our heart and once trusting in the Lord and His will, your life truly starts. You will be revealed to the meaning of life, of love, of yourself. It's time for us to go and truly be children of God, and give Him the praise He deserves!